Saturday, May 30, 2015

I'm Still Here

I know it has been forever since I posted anything but a lot has been going on since Christmas. First my health has not really been too good. As many of you know I have neuropathy in my hands and feet/legs. It makes it hard to walk steady and I am always in pain. I am on medications but they do not work 100%. My hands have gotten worse lately. I'm even having trouble typing this post. I have been tested more than one time for everything in the world that may cause it and all tests are fine. They just put me in that category where they don't know why I have it or what caused it. Bummer!

Then right after Christmas my mom had to go to the hospital. She was not able to breathe. She had been fighting COPD since 2006.  During the time she was in the hospital, she had to be put on a ventilator because she was not getting enough oxygen in her system. Her muscles in her whole body had gone down so much over the years that she was not strong enough to breath on her own. Eventually they put in a trach line because the tubes had been in her throat from her mouth too long and could damage her throat. She then came down with shingles but she was on so many meds that it came and went. They had her doing physical therapy which after awhile she was getting a little stronger. She started to get better. The whole time she was in the hospital they would draw blood once or twice a day to check certain levels of everything. So they had to give her blood to replace what they took cuz she was not producing new blood fast enough.

She had been in the hospital for two months. Then on February 26th (I believe) her organs started to shut down. Did not know why at that time. It was like a complete turn around. Apparently she had developed sepsis. I had heard of it but was not sure what it was. Sepsis is contracted through blood transfer. Those last couple of bags they gave her apparently had the disease. There is no cure and no way to test for it cuz I asked the doctor why they don't test the blood people give for sepsis. I know they test it for tons of other stuff but there is no way to test for that disease. And it works fast!

My mom passed away on February 28th.

I was really close to my mom. I had never lost anyone that close to me so it has really been hard. I'm an only child so I have no siblings to mourn with. I do have my family though and they have been great, especially my sweet hubby. He lost his mom awhile back so he knows what I'm going through. I went through his mom's passing too and it was awful....for me. Hubby was strong but for some reason it affected me worse. I was a wreck for a long time. I loved my MIL. She was a sweet woman but I was not sure why I was morning for her so bad. I had hoped that if and when I lost my own mom I would feel just as bad and worse. Well I DO!!

I know death is as part of life and everyone goes through this at one level or another, but this is just too much for me to handle. I had always told friends when they lost their loved one that time will heal but now that I am going through it, I just want to know...how much time does it take?  Geez!  Enough already with the water works!  But I just can't help it. I loved my mother very much and I'm not sure if it is because I am an only child, but it just feels like it will never end. I have a very close friend who lost her mother a few years back and while we were at the gravesite, I remember seeing her really cry hard. I had seen her cry before but not like that. I gave her a hug when I left and she was trembling and still crying hard as we hugged. I knew she had siblings to be there for her and for each other so I know she would be ok. I felt so bad for her. She was the only girl out of I think four brothers and even though I know she grew up tough, you would never know it from the amount of sadness she expressed. And I am sure that even though she was the only girl in the family, because of that I believe that is what made her close to her mom and what made her tough exterior disappear during that time and just become a daughter that lost her mom.

I'm so sorry to go into all that but she has been a great friend to me for a very long time and she is the one I have been leaning on through this very sad time in my life. She loved my mom too.

So ANYHOO I want you guys to know I will be trying to get my act together and start crafting again. I will be going to a crop in July. I missed the one in January for obvious reasons but I am excited for this one cuz I will be scrapping layouts of my grand baby!  Who hoo!!  I have steadily been gathering things that I know I will need for "baby" layouts.  I will eventually be doing an album about my mom also. I have been collecting pics from her sisters of when she was little. She was a cute kid!  No baby pics though. Bummer!

Ok so let's get to it!  Love you guys!

Karen Sue

Saturday, December 13, 2014

DIY Christmas Tree

I finally got around to doing some table top Christmas trees. Here is one of the ones did.

I did a few more which you can see in a video I will post later. Thanks. 

Friday, November 7, 2014

Wedding Album #2 (for my Mom) Completed!!

I FINALLY got finished with the wedding album (of my son's wedding) that I gave to my Mom for Christmas.  Yeah.....Christmas of LAST YEAR!!!  I'm a terrible daughter.  Took forever to get it done.  But at least it got done right?  LOL  Well below are a few pictures and also the video I did on it showing it page by page.  I showed it to her before it was completed (I only had a few pages left) and she loved it!  I am so glad.  

The base for this album came from Sue (ScrapLady530 on YouTube).   She did a great job on it.  I hope you like it too.  Enjoy!

Here is the video showing it a little bit more in detail.

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

Breast Cancer Awareness

Here is a card I did in response to the October challenge at Bethsscrapbookroom. We were to do a project or card for Breast Cancer Awareness Month and Beth is going to send them to different organizations for the cancer patients. Maybe it will brighten up their day a little while they are having to go through a tough time fighting that nasty disease. 

I so wanted to do a ton more but I ran out of time and I had not been feeling good. I hope this one at least puts a smile on someone's face. 

UPDATE: 11/7/14 -- Here is the other card I was able to do real quick and send to Beth.  

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

Happy Birthday to my oldest son, Daniel!

Boy they grow up so fast don't they?!  He was just born the other day, and then a few days ago he graduated high school.  He got married yesterday and has a baby today.  Where did the time go???????  Well I guess it just seems that fast but it is really heart-wrenching when they leave the nest.  BUT the good part of it all is I got a grand baby out of the deal.  Whoo hoo!!!  He is 6 months old now...oh no! He's doing the same thing...growing too fast!  Yikes!  

Ok Karen Sue pull it together... Well as far as my oldest, his birthday is just two days after mine so we usually celebrate together.  Here are some cards I did for him.  One I did for my Dad to give him and the other for me and hubby to give him.  I think they turned out cute.

Here is the one me and hubby gave him.  This is a Cheery Lynn die. My son loves to hunt deer and ducks so both of these cards were oh so appropriate!

And this is the one I made for my Dad and his wife to give him. The deer are Memory Box I believe. Not sure about the grass though. Sorry.

Here is the video show a little more detail. Enjoy! Leave me a comment and let me know what you think.  Thanks!

Response to Scraplady530 ATC Challenge Giveaway

Yep, another late posting.  So sorry guys.  Scraplady530 was doing an ATC challenge giveaway so I thought I would give it a go.  I sent it off to her before I could get some photos but I did make the video.  And again I used those cute little owls I got at The Dollar Tree.  They are just so darn ka-yute! And I did the back a little different than normal so hope you like it.